having a god moment

in my alley way prayer 

The Pure Fool - from naivety to wisdom" 

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is sex important. having an orgasam? is it important ? incest - how its normal to some, its what you grew up with - the thought " this is how you learn how to do it" 
they take advanage of you. they see it as nothing. a crime, not a crime. it happens all around you. reading a magazine. reading peter sotos. reading an interview on pedohiles in prisons. studying pedohphelia for at least 2 decades of my life. getting to the grit of it. getting to the core of it. being horny. the first time yoi felt horny. the first time you took acid. how it felt normal. how you thought it was normal. someone creeping into my tent. someone touching my body softly tickling me. why you dont smoke weed. who youre a schitosphrenic. feeling abandonded. living in a apartment. trying to work out why i feel guilty. not going to work. working with children. not able to comprehend the flight. having sex with children. adults having sex with children. watching a movie. listening to music. eating food. making it happen. 

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