and if they r telling me once again to end my life like when i was stuck in a psychotoic loop for several years the first time i took acid, is happening again? who is to say that is real?


only on a diffirent certain level will u be able to hear the actual world around u


things to fink about in the presence of (how trees grow, how a human grows, sunlight, all elements/ when attention is lost, carelessness is lost what happens then - how the world is destroyed? why r u a sadist and how can u wake up to the reality of violence in every small measure? am i part of the problem. shall i abandon?


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is it the sense of the bogan family that created it? or rather the great depression, seeping underneath that u do not exist in their eyes therefore? or used as the object of desire (molested) then seen as a use? which is still ongoing? and the use (the rape) is actually how i show u and teach you what love is ?


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USED BY VIOLENCE - VICTIM THREAD - WANTED LOVE ANY KIND OF LOVE ANY KIND OF LOVE AT ALL WHICH IS R A P E

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